Well, as we've seen I'm either a terrible blogger or I lead a boring, redundant life. My conclusion is it's a little bit of both but alas, here I am again with a life decision or problem or rant to indulge you all with. The problem is not necessarily one BIG problem, but instead a bunch of little random problems that are scattered throughout my life. From friendships to work, I'm constantly faced with decisions that don't seem that significant but add up to big things. Oh where to begin....
Let's start with work. I'm a server and it's decent money and a pretty easy job. The hardest part though? my co-workers. OH.MY.GOODNESS. Never in my life have I been surrounded by so many irresponsible, gossipy, and childish adults. Day after day I'm forced to deal with not only difficult tables, but even more difficult co-workers. Now they all aren't bad, but it's the few bad apples that ruin the bunch. In my mind I know I should be the bigger person, show God's love, or just be a better person than they are but most days I feel like I just can't do it. I'm no longer the bubbly, happy girl at work anymore. Now I'm the girl that's quiet, sullen, and most shifts, solitary. I'm there to do my job....not make friends which brings me to my next rant....
Friendship. One simple word with a series of complicated definitions. There isn't really one true way to define friendship. For some friendships it's defined by the number of times you spend time with someone. For other's it's being able to pick up right where you left off after not seeing each other for months. It's also something that's the basis of a number of other relationships whether it's a mother-daughter relationship, a sister relationship, or a romantic relationship. What happens when friendship ceases to exist in one of those relationships, particularly a romantic relationship. Have they miraculously surpassed into this upper level boyfriend/girlfriend relationship where they no longer need friendship and it's just assumed that the friendship is still there? These are the questions that keep me up at night.
Now on to school. This is the one area of my life that is actually going very well. I've made the Deans list for the past two semesters which is a huge accomplishment for me, especially compared to high school and first couple years of college. I'm chalking it up to I'm finally doing something I love to do and taking classes I enjoy. Someday I'm hoping that I'll make as big of an impact on my students as my past teachers have. One of them is retiring at the end of the year and there isn't anything in the world that will keep me from attending her retirement party. She was a wonderful woman, full of wisdom and patience which she definitely needed for my class. She's the reason I ended up in education and a teacher I plan to model in my future classroom.
Well folks, that's all I really feel like sharing tonight but I feel like until I get my life figured out and my questions answered I'll be here...writing my feelings and over-sharing on the interwebs like a fourteen year old.
