S.O.S.

It doesn't cease to amaze me how quickly I change my mind. I'm so fickle about so many things. I don't seem to know what I want. In one corner, there is someone that's new and pretty awesome, but in the other corner there is the familiar person that you have easy access to. So what do I do? Neither one is a guarantee of course. I just am so lost as what to do. I have fallen into this cycle so many times and its starting to take its toll on me both physically and emotionally. I always come back to this place where I've completely thrown in the towel and I'm ok with it and I'm ok with where I am in life. Then...BAM...blind-sided. So here I am stuck between a rock and a hard place. Between the unfamiliar and familiar. While one is new and exciting, there is potentially for heartbreak. The other has left a cycle of heartbreak, but what if this time it really is different. See the dilemna? Here's my thinking. I'm going to do the only thing I really can do. Let go and let God.