A Day of Thanks

Happy Thanksgiving!!! *gobble gobble*

Today is a day for thankfulness. I have so many things to be thankful for. I have a loving God that not only loves me, but also has the best planned for me. I have a completely chaotic, unbelivably insane family that I am entirely excited for spending time with my family. I have so many other blessings that listing them would be endless. I am just so blessed.

"....I have been blessedAnd I feel like I've found my way I thank God for all I've been given at the end of every dayI have been blessed with so much more than I deserve to be here with the ones that love me to love them so much it hurts I have been blessed....."
-Blessed, Martina McBride

countdown to break!

One more week. One more week until Thanksgiving. One more week until seeing my friends. One more week until I can be home, working, seeing old friends, eating, and being thankful.

I am incredibly exicted to see my work friends! I haven't seen Ethan, Anthony, Colleen, or Katherine since summer! I can't wait to see they're beautiful faces.....especially Ethan's lol He's my handsome prep school boy. lol

On an IWU note. Nate and I are back on the up and up....but I'm still having patience issues. I want things to move along a little quicker than they are but really rushing into things would be pretty stupid? I don't know. I know what I want and what I'm thinking.....guess I just can't control his thinking. Its all good though, things could be worse! Things have been worse. I just find myself easily frusterated with him sometimes, but I guess that's what happens? Don't get me wrong....I care a lot about him, but for some reason I just feel like we need to space ourselves out, but not for a long time. Another reason why I'm excited for Thanksgiving Break. He'll be here, I'll be home doing Lord only knows. Five whole days apart will do us some good!

dreaming with a broken heart...

No one says it quite like John Mayer. I find myself in the same situation as I typically end up in concerning those creatures of the opposite sex. I find myself one I deem worth my time, now keep in mind this is the same boy that I have put many hours of time, thoughts, prayers, and energy into and now here I am; confused at where I stand, upset that we keep hitting this wall, wondering if I am just making the worst decision ever. I am incredibly confused as to why it keeps coming to this place. All my friends tell me to let it go. He's a douche, not worth my time. Why am I not listening? I don't understand what the problem is. Why do I put up with it? Am I really being walked all over? Why is it that seeing the negative is the easiest thing to do in any relationship? I really just don't get it. He's done so many good things, said so many sweet things. At the same time though, he's shut me out. Kept his thoughts to himself. He's not ready for a relationship. He needs his time. I don't know if he'll ever be ready. Oh gosh....what did I get myself into this time.