Break is almost over. I cannot honestly believe that it is ending so quickly. Who knew that three little weeks could go by so quickly? Everything I wanted to accomplish, I didn't. Time is slowly ticking away and there is nothing I can do to stop it. On the other hand, I wish time would go faster. I wish life had a fast forward button. I wish I was able to fast forward or rewind to happier times. Times when life altering decisions weren't looming over your head. Times when one decision could ruin important relationships. Needless to say, I'm feeling a little melancholy.

I've been dreaming, probably more than I should, about the day I waltz on down the aisle. I cannot wait for the day I am bound spiritually and legally to one man for the rest of my life. He'll be my best friend, my confidant, and of course my most lovable annoyance. I'm not stupid, I know it won't always be wine and roses, but it'll be the best thing. I've got wedding brain lately and its...well not helping me be very patient.

I'm debating on my future. Two different paths are in front of me, a fork in the road if you will. I keep thinking about Frost's poem. C'mon now, everyone knows this poem. It's not hard to figure out. Yes, that's right I'm refering to The Road Not Taken.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

So this poses the question. Which road do I take? I can't take both. I can't go back and time and make a different decision. I just need to make one. I need guidance. Clear, open minded, knows-whats-best-for-you guidance.

Feliz Navidad!!

Merry Christmas Everyone! I have to say I do enjoy this holiday, however, I could do without all the holiday shoppers. This year everyone seemed to be in a very bitter mood, cranky and irriated. Christmas also completely snuck up on me this year. I officially finished all my shopping Christmas Eve and wrapped them all at 10:30 last night. It was interesting.....lol Anyway Christmas was good to me this year! Lots of clothing, solid amount of dvd's, and BOOKS! Hooray for books :)

I've been thinking a lot about marriage lately. It's been on my brain and what can I say, I can't wait! I've found me the one I'm going marry. Now it's just a matter of waiting until I get that ring on my finger. Maybe a year or two? Only time shall tell. Here I sit, watching 27 Dresses and dreaming about my day someday.....

I have offically made it through my first semester at IWU! Finals kicked my butt as I assumed they would but I am thankfully at home and I've been able to rest easy for a week now. Good times good times! It's been great to be home and see my friends and I have to admit I have missed my family a little bit! I do not miss the snow....well ok driving in the snow. We got a lot of snow the other day and I honestly thought I was going to die. Semi's think that they own the road and quite frankly its slightly obnoxious. Now I spend my days at home or at J. Crew wasting my break away. Before too long I'll be back at school with my nose to the grind stone and making big decisions in my life. For example, stay at IWU or go to beauty school? That is my current dilemna......

zero motivation...

I have zero motivation. None what so ever to study. I always seem to have this problem. I've never been a studier. It seems to come naturally for some, or maybe they just have a better work ethic than I do. I just don't have the motivation to do these things. Finals are stupid. I have two days standing between me and Toledo. Two days. I can do it!!!

So, Thursday was my last day in Foundations of Early Childhood and as much as my professor annoys the crap out of me, I can't help but listen to her moments of wisdom. She always reads us a devotional before class and typically its topic is sex or marriage, this one was slightly different. Ever heard of a guinea hen? Well these are the only types of hens that fly straight up instead of forward like most hens. While they're talented, they're stupid. Incredibly stupid. She told us a story of a friend of hers that owns a farm with plenty of guinea hens. Apparently one night, a fox or some other woodland creature came looking for a snack. Well, instead of using their talents and flying up...they ran around like stupid hens. If they just would've looked up and realized they could've escaped the fox's teeth by flying they wouldn't have died. Here's where this applies to life. Think about it...each one is blessed with different talents given to us by God. Now when things get so overwhelming and you feel like you're being chased by everything and everyone...are you going to be smarter than the guinea hen and look up and see that God is the escape route? He's the one that will help you through the moments of turmoil and he's the one that can save you. I'm sorry if this doesn't make much sense...my brain has been fried by finals and academics, but if think about it and it might make a little more sense.

school,break,love

9 more days. 9 more days until the end of my first semester of college away from home. It's such an odd thought to me. I've always been a homebody. I never wanted to leave then in a matter of a couple months I was sick of the drama, sick of the routine, and sick of Toledo. Don't get me wrong, I still love my friends there but it came time for me to leave and now here I am nearing the end of my first semester as an "out-of-town" college student.

Breaks are great. They really are! Thanksgiving break for me was not only much anticipated, but also much needed. The week leading up to break was horrible for me. I just wanted to not worry about classes, get back home and see my friends and family, and just get away from the opinions of people here. Here I thought I was going to have this relaxing break, I didn't imagine that I wouldn't be getting much sleep during my time home. I arrived home Tuesday night and spent time with three people I never thought I would. I went to Frickers with Mel, Seth, and Caleb. Now there's nothing wrong with these three, it's just I've never really hung out with them. Mel is kind of the only exception to that rule seeing as he dated my best friend and all, but when that went kaput I never really thought to hang out with him. Well it all changed when I got the phone call that Caleb would be in town and I met up with them at Frickers. I'm not going to lie, I'm pretty sure the time I spent with them was one of the highlights of my break. I am so amazed just by what God is doing in each one of their lives. With all the technology now, you think you know whats going on just by creeping on facebook and while you may have a good idea...you don't know the details that basically ties everything together. We all had a great conversation ranging from the basketball game playing in the background to what God has been doing in the lives of each of us. It was so much fun to see them and hang out with them! Hopefully I'll be invited to 'boy night' again?

Oh another note, I missed Nate. I know that sounds so lame but it's true. We were apart what...two days and I wanted him to be in Toledo. It was pretty pathetic I'm not going to lie. haha I do have to say though, it was pretty amazing when he just showed up in my room, even if he didn't have the flowers :) I think it's pretty obvious....we're in loooooveeeeee haha