Merry Christmas Everyone! I have to say I do enjoy this holiday, however, I could do without all the holiday shoppers. This year everyone seemed to be in a very bitter mood, cranky and irriated. Christmas also completely snuck up on me this year. I officially finished all my shopping Christmas Eve and wrapped them all at 10:30 last night. It was interesting.....lol Anyway Christmas was good to me this year! Lots of clothing, solid amount of dvd's, and BOOKS! Hooray for books :)
I've been thinking a lot about marriage lately. It's been on my brain and what can I say, I can't wait! I've found me the one I'm going marry. Now it's just a matter of waiting until I get that ring on my finger. Maybe a year or two? Only time shall tell. Here I sit, watching 27 Dresses and dreaming about my day someday.....
Thursday, December 25, 2008
Thursday, December 18, 2008
I have offically made it through my first semester at IWU! Finals kicked my butt as I assumed they would but I am thankfully at home and I've been able to rest easy for a week now. Good times good times! It's been great to be home and see my friends and I have to admit I have missed my family a little bit! I do not miss the snow....well ok driving in the snow. We got a lot of snow the other day and I honestly thought I was going to die. Semi's think that they own the road and quite frankly its slightly obnoxious. Now I spend my days at home or at J. Crew wasting my break away. Before too long I'll be back at school with my nose to the grind stone and making big decisions in my life. For example, stay at IWU or go to beauty school? That is my current dilemna......
Monday, December 8, 2008
zero motivation...
I have zero motivation. None what so ever to study. I always seem to have this problem. I've never been a studier. It seems to come naturally for some, or maybe they just have a better work ethic than I do. I just don't have the motivation to do these things. Finals are stupid. I have two days standing between me and Toledo. Two days. I can do it!!!
So, Thursday was my last day in Foundations of Early Childhood and as much as my professor annoys the crap out of me, I can't help but listen to her moments of wisdom. She always reads us a devotional before class and typically its topic is sex or marriage, this one was slightly different. Ever heard of a guinea hen? Well these are the only types of hens that fly straight up instead of forward like most hens. While they're talented, they're stupid. Incredibly stupid. She told us a story of a friend of hers that owns a farm with plenty of guinea hens. Apparently one night, a fox or some other woodland creature came looking for a snack. Well, instead of using their talents and flying up...they ran around like stupid hens. If they just would've looked up and realized they could've escaped the fox's teeth by flying they wouldn't have died. Here's where this applies to life. Think about it...each one is blessed with different talents given to us by God. Now when things get so overwhelming and you feel like you're being chased by everything and everyone...are you going to be smarter than the guinea hen and look up and see that God is the escape route? He's the one that will help you through the moments of turmoil and he's the one that can save you. I'm sorry if this doesn't make much sense...my brain has been fried by finals and academics, but if think about it and it might make a little more sense.
So, Thursday was my last day in Foundations of Early Childhood and as much as my professor annoys the crap out of me, I can't help but listen to her moments of wisdom. She always reads us a devotional before class and typically its topic is sex or marriage, this one was slightly different. Ever heard of a guinea hen? Well these are the only types of hens that fly straight up instead of forward like most hens. While they're talented, they're stupid. Incredibly stupid. She told us a story of a friend of hers that owns a farm with plenty of guinea hens. Apparently one night, a fox or some other woodland creature came looking for a snack. Well, instead of using their talents and flying up...they ran around like stupid hens. If they just would've looked up and realized they could've escaped the fox's teeth by flying they wouldn't have died. Here's where this applies to life. Think about it...each one is blessed with different talents given to us by God. Now when things get so overwhelming and you feel like you're being chased by everything and everyone...are you going to be smarter than the guinea hen and look up and see that God is the escape route? He's the one that will help you through the moments of turmoil and he's the one that can save you. I'm sorry if this doesn't make much sense...my brain has been fried by finals and academics, but if think about it and it might make a little more sense.
Tuesday, December 2, 2008
school,break,love
9 more days. 9 more days until the end of my first semester of college away from home. It's such an odd thought to me. I've always been a homebody. I never wanted to leave then in a matter of a couple months I was sick of the drama, sick of the routine, and sick of Toledo. Don't get me wrong, I still love my friends there but it came time for me to leave and now here I am nearing the end of my first semester as an "out-of-town" college student.
Breaks are great. They really are! Thanksgiving break for me was not only much anticipated, but also much needed. The week leading up to break was horrible for me. I just wanted to not worry about classes, get back home and see my friends and family, and just get away from the opinions of people here. Here I thought I was going to have this relaxing break, I didn't imagine that I wouldn't be getting much sleep during my time home. I arrived home Tuesday night and spent time with three people I never thought I would. I went to Frickers with Mel, Seth, and Caleb. Now there's nothing wrong with these three, it's just I've never really hung out with them. Mel is kind of the only exception to that rule seeing as he dated my best friend and all, but when that went kaput I never really thought to hang out with him. Well it all changed when I got the phone call that Caleb would be in town and I met up with them at Frickers. I'm not going to lie, I'm pretty sure the time I spent with them was one of the highlights of my break. I am so amazed just by what God is doing in each one of their lives. With all the technology now, you think you know whats going on just by creeping on facebook and while you may have a good idea...you don't know the details that basically ties everything together. We all had a great conversation ranging from the basketball game playing in the background to what God has been doing in the lives of each of us. It was so much fun to see them and hang out with them! Hopefully I'll be invited to 'boy night' again?
Oh another note, I missed Nate. I know that sounds so lame but it's true. We were apart what...two days and I wanted him to be in Toledo. It was pretty pathetic I'm not going to lie. haha I do have to say though, it was pretty amazing when he just showed up in my room, even if he didn't have the flowers :) I think it's pretty obvious....we're in loooooveeeeee haha
Breaks are great. They really are! Thanksgiving break for me was not only much anticipated, but also much needed. The week leading up to break was horrible for me. I just wanted to not worry about classes, get back home and see my friends and family, and just get away from the opinions of people here. Here I thought I was going to have this relaxing break, I didn't imagine that I wouldn't be getting much sleep during my time home. I arrived home Tuesday night and spent time with three people I never thought I would. I went to Frickers with Mel, Seth, and Caleb. Now there's nothing wrong with these three, it's just I've never really hung out with them. Mel is kind of the only exception to that rule seeing as he dated my best friend and all, but when that went kaput I never really thought to hang out with him. Well it all changed when I got the phone call that Caleb would be in town and I met up with them at Frickers. I'm not going to lie, I'm pretty sure the time I spent with them was one of the highlights of my break. I am so amazed just by what God is doing in each one of their lives. With all the technology now, you think you know whats going on just by creeping on facebook and while you may have a good idea...you don't know the details that basically ties everything together. We all had a great conversation ranging from the basketball game playing in the background to what God has been doing in the lives of each of us. It was so much fun to see them and hang out with them! Hopefully I'll be invited to 'boy night' again?
Oh another note, I missed Nate. I know that sounds so lame but it's true. We were apart what...two days and I wanted him to be in Toledo. It was pretty pathetic I'm not going to lie. haha I do have to say though, it was pretty amazing when he just showed up in my room, even if he didn't have the flowers :) I think it's pretty obvious....we're in loooooveeeeee haha
Thursday, November 27, 2008
A Day of Thanks
Happy Thanksgiving!!! *gobble gobble*
Today is a day for thankfulness. I have so many things to be thankful for. I have a loving God that not only loves me, but also has the best planned for me. I have a completely chaotic, unbelivably insane family that I am entirely excited for spending time with my family. I have so many other blessings that listing them would be endless. I am just so blessed.
"....I have been blessedAnd I feel like I've found my way I thank God for all I've been given at the end of every dayI have been blessed with so much more than I deserve to be here with the ones that love me to love them so much it hurts I have been blessed....."
-Blessed, Martina McBride
Today is a day for thankfulness. I have so many things to be thankful for. I have a loving God that not only loves me, but also has the best planned for me. I have a completely chaotic, unbelivably insane family that I am entirely excited for spending time with my family. I have so many other blessings that listing them would be endless. I am just so blessed.
"....I have been blessedAnd I feel like I've found my way I thank God for all I've been given at the end of every dayI have been blessed with so much more than I deserve to be here with the ones that love me to love them so much it hurts I have been blessed....."
-Blessed, Martina McBride
Monday, November 17, 2008
countdown to break!
One more week. One more week until Thanksgiving. One more week until seeing my friends. One more week until I can be home, working, seeing old friends, eating, and being thankful.
I am incredibly exicted to see my work friends! I haven't seen Ethan, Anthony, Colleen, or Katherine since summer! I can't wait to see they're beautiful faces.....especially Ethan's lol He's my handsome prep school boy. lol
On an IWU note. Nate and I are back on the up and up....but I'm still having patience issues. I want things to move along a little quicker than they are but really rushing into things would be pretty stupid? I don't know. I know what I want and what I'm thinking.....guess I just can't control his thinking. Its all good though, things could be worse! Things have been worse. I just find myself easily frusterated with him sometimes, but I guess that's what happens? Don't get me wrong....I care a lot about him, but for some reason I just feel like we need to space ourselves out, but not for a long time. Another reason why I'm excited for Thanksgiving Break. He'll be here, I'll be home doing Lord only knows. Five whole days apart will do us some good!
I am incredibly exicted to see my work friends! I haven't seen Ethan, Anthony, Colleen, or Katherine since summer! I can't wait to see they're beautiful faces.....especially Ethan's lol He's my handsome prep school boy. lol
On an IWU note. Nate and I are back on the up and up....but I'm still having patience issues. I want things to move along a little quicker than they are but really rushing into things would be pretty stupid? I don't know. I know what I want and what I'm thinking.....guess I just can't control his thinking. Its all good though, things could be worse! Things have been worse. I just find myself easily frusterated with him sometimes, but I guess that's what happens? Don't get me wrong....I care a lot about him, but for some reason I just feel like we need to space ourselves out, but not for a long time. Another reason why I'm excited for Thanksgiving Break. He'll be here, I'll be home doing Lord only knows. Five whole days apart will do us some good!
Monday, November 10, 2008
dreaming with a broken heart...
No one says it quite like John Mayer. I find myself in the same situation as I typically end up in concerning those creatures of the opposite sex. I find myself one I deem worth my time, now keep in mind this is the same boy that I have put many hours of time, thoughts, prayers, and energy into and now here I am; confused at where I stand, upset that we keep hitting this wall, wondering if I am just making the worst decision ever. I am incredibly confused as to why it keeps coming to this place. All my friends tell me to let it go. He's a douche, not worth my time. Why am I not listening? I don't understand what the problem is. Why do I put up with it? Am I really being walked all over? Why is it that seeing the negative is the easiest thing to do in any relationship? I really just don't get it. He's done so many good things, said so many sweet things. At the same time though, he's shut me out. Kept his thoughts to himself. He's not ready for a relationship. He needs his time. I don't know if he'll ever be ready. Oh gosh....what did I get myself into this time.
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