So here I was about to launch into this long whiny blog post and I decided to journal first (yes I keep a journal AND a blog...I blog more than I journal lol). I started out and then kind of just stopped and smiled. I was about to write this whole entry about how my life is so confusing and so horrible and I felt myself falling back into the person that I was. That's not who I want to be anymore and when I really looked at what I was whining about I just laughed. In the end it doesn't matter. God knows every intricate detail of my life...why should I sweat if so and so likes me or not? I mean really...lets think about this. Why should I waste my time worrying about things God already knows? I want to do what HE wants for my life anyway. He'll bring the right person along at the right time at the right place. I don't want to screw that up so why even try and mess with it?
I find myself coming back to moments like this every week. I keep catching myself falling backwards into old habits and old routines. This is not good my friends but I'm thankful that God has been changing my heart so I can recognize when I'm starting to fall backwards and I can stop and pray for peace, encouragement, or strength to make it through. God is so good. I can't help but be thankful for all he's done in my life this summer.
My thoughts are so scattered right now and its hard to hold a thought but I'll leave you with this. The attitude I want to have in my life is best said in a very popular praise and worship song...Blessed Be YOUR Name. No matter what happens in my life blessed be your name.
