I'm definately finding myself a cup full of crazy these days. I'm starting to think I actually need to go to the doctor and well...that's back home and I'm here, three hours away with no car. Good plan right? Well I guess here's hoping that I get to go home sometime here in the near future and that I'll be able to get an appointment!

I'm falling behind on the what I wanted to accomplish by this point in time. I thought I'd be really sure about where I wanted to be next year but after visiting the school I'm pretty sure I'm more confused than I was before I went. I have yet to read through all the material because quite frankly, I have other things I'd rather be reading. For example, Lies Women (and Young Women) Believe has been just sitting lonely on my shelf. I was so excited to read those books as devotional thoughts and they're still kind of just sitting there. Lets chalk another up for losing track of time and falling asleep. I really need to read those books though, they'll definately come in handy later on.

So remember the no boys vow? Yeah me too...so let me ask you this. The second I decide to take a break and kind of just heal why is it that oh I don't know...6 different guys all show interest? Ok I may be over-exaggerating on a few of them...but honestly like a few have vocalized their...feelings. I'm so not in the mood to deal with this. I don't like hurting their feelings, but its one of those it'll probably never happen in the first place, but then I guess you never know right? Like I said...boys are dumb. Sorry if I offend any of you...lol

I talked with on of my friends back home last night. He's a super freaky genius...has a couple full rides being thrown at him so he has big decisions to make. Ironically I do too. One would think two years into college I'd have a good grasp on what I want to be...but I don't. Of course we ended up talking about John Piper and I'm in the process of listening to one of his sermons. Good stuff is coming out of them...I'm just waiting to see where God leads. Big neon signs would be nice but then again...we need to be wise enough to make the right decision. It'll all turn out ok though...I'm trying to be optimistic :)