cry me a river...

I'm pretty sure I've just cried way to much lately. My pillow case is a testament to that. Its been wrecked by streaks of my so called "waterproof" mascara. God I'm trying to hard to trust you, but I'm failing miserably. I'm miserable. I'm trying my hardest not to be petty...but I find myself choking on the words. I just want to scream, but I know it won't help anything. God please just lead me in the direction you want me to go...I'm not sure how much longer I can stand at this fork in the road.