I missed church today. I don't really like that especially since right now I'm really just searching to try and figure out what's really going on with my life. I find myself confused a lot of the time. I see myself becoming someone I don't want to be and I haven't really done much to stop it. I'm slowly watching myself fade into this new person. Still the nice girl but someone who seems to put God on the back burner. Someone who doesn't act any different from the rest of the world. That's not who I'm called to be. That's not what God wants me to be. I know that yet I have done nothing to stop it. Where did this apathy come from? Where is my passion for my faith? Where did it all go and how can I get it back because I don't want to drift further and further away.
I have a lot of work to do on myself. There are loads of things that need to be fixed. Oh issues, why must there be so many of you in my life and why must you be so hard to fix.
