Why is it that as you get older it seems as if there are no "little" decisions anymore. They all seem to be life altering decisions. At the ripe old age of 17 you get to decide what you will be FOR THE REST OF YOUR LIFE! Now children, choose wisely because making the wrong decision will cause for years of misery down the road. Now don't worry, you do have time to change your major while you are in college, that's what college is for right? but make sure you have the support of your family; without it....you're basically screwed. As far as other big decisions go...the person you marry. Now now don't jump to conclusions, I'm not ultimately at that stage in life yet, but still it's on my mind. Once again, choose wisely or you will become another one of those pesky statitistics. You will be contributing to the 50% divorce rate in America.
Now, after that short little rant, let me just say this. I don't know why I stress about these big decisions. I honestly don't. I shouldn't. I have an almighty God that loves me enough to take care of me. Yet, here I sit. Stressing. Freaking. Angry. and Frusterated. God's tough I know he can handle my petulant whining, however I still feel like a horrible person for doing it. I feel as if I'm a horrible Christian because I have issues of letting go of the reigns and handing them over to him; like I'm never going to learn my lesson about control. So tell me, what's a girl to do? I know that prayer is a mighty tool, but what do you do when you feel as if they're going unanswered? I've grown up in church, I know the answers. He always answers prayer in His timing. So if I think about this...lets count how many things I have wrong with me shall we?
1. I'm being a whiny little child
2. I apparently have control and trust issues
3. Patience is not a virtue I possess
4. I stress out about stupid things
Now those are four pretty big things. I guess the only thing I can say is, I'm happy I have a loving God that puts up with all of my insecurties and flaws and STILL loves me enough to do what's best for me.
