Well I've gotten emotional again. The only thing is...I don't know who to talk it out with. Obviously there's God...no worries I haven't forgotten about Him, I just feel like I need some human encouragement. I just don't know who to call.
I just left Summit (IWU's Spiritual Emphasis Week) and I have to say God has worked in so many lives including my own. We talked about bowing down to God. Stop taking yourself so seriously and taking God so lightly and I honestly realized how often I do that. I always think that I can fix things myself. I'm stubborn. I have to do things my way because apparently my way is best...but its SO not. Especially with everything as up in the air as it is now...I really need to rely on God's control. I want to be used by God. He's all I need.
I'm sorry I'm just having a hard time gathering my thoughts right now...there is just so many things I want to say that they're all trying to fight their way out. Too bad they've all just .... jammed up my brain and I now have writers block. Maybe I'll be a little more clear tomorrow...
I'll just leave you with one of my favorite worships songs from my days in Praise Band. We learned this song my sophomore year of high school at snow camp. Our youth intern had a buddy that wrote this song and it has become one of my all time favorites. I get it stuck in my head all the time....
"Father I fall at your feet and give thanks for this love, that I'm not worthy of. You hold me in hands that lead Jesus to his sacrifice, oh how you love my life. You have searched me, you have found me, you have saved my soul. You love me so you break me and I begin to understand the way you gave up your son so that I can run through the fields of grace with a heart of praise this life I owe I will give it all to be an offering of love."
