"I'm a drifter out on a dead end road
Trying to find my way back home to get to You
Oh to get to You ...
Lord I've been gone for far too long
Headed to places I don't belong
And I've got to get back home to You"
-DecembeRadio
I've been told recently that I relate song lyrics to my life. To an extent I guess that's pretty true and I've become obsessed with this song lately. I guess I should thank Adlai for introducing me to the band. Recently it seems like I've been like this. I'm trying to come back home into the arms of the loving Savior. I've walked away from God and just drifted to a bunch of other things to find my happiness. I'm so horrible at directing my own life. I truely am. I invest my time and efforts into the things I think should happen and I end up making a mess of things. I'm so thankful though that God's always there. He is the one constant I can count on. I'm also so thankful for the people He's placed in my life to encourage me. Some friends I made during my high school years have been phenonmenal to me these past few weeks. They've prayed for me, offered encouragement and wisdom. They've directed me to Bible passages and reminded me of the Biblical principles I never should've forgotten. They've also showed me that I'm not alone in this. They're dealing with their own uncertanties about the future and have told me how their handling it. I'm so grateful for them! I have to say these are my favorite pieces of thought....
"plan with wisdom and walk by faith"
It sounds so simple and it seems like its a no brainer, yet for me its so hard to do! I don't really understand why that is other than I have issues.
"Godliness with contentment is great gain"
Now this one, I know I struggle with A LOT. Contentment does not come easy for me. I never feel like I'm fully satisfied, but that could be that I've always invested myself into the wrong things. I would tell myself that..."if I only had that outfit, I'd be content"..."if only we would be together, I'd be content"...I think you get the idea. The idea of being happy with what you have, no matter how little it is or how much it is truely appeals to me. Don't get me wrong, it's not like I've lived this horrible existance and I've hated my life but I don't know if I've ever truely been content with the place that I was. I was always looking for something to make it that much better. Like I said...this has been my food for thought recently.
