seasons change...so can I

Galatians 6:7-10

"Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. The one who sows to please his sinful nature, from that nature will reap destruction; the one who sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life. let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers."

Ecclesiastes 3:1,4-8

"There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven:...."

"a time to weep and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance; a time to scatter stones and a time to gather them,a time to embrace and a time to refrain; a time to search and a time to give up, a time to keep and a time to throw away; a time to tear down and a time to mend, a time to be silent and a time to speak; a time to love and a time to hate, a time for war and a time for peace."

As I haven't kept from hiding, I've been going through a lot. I've made my decision after praying about it and reading what God has already said in His word. It's not going to be an easy road to travel. It won't be enjoyable. I'm trusting that this too shall pass. I've been finding comfort in the fact that there is a time for everything. This is my time to reap what I've sown. I'm paying for the sins that I have done...and I'm ashamed but I know that through this I will become a stronger and better Christian. I feel like this has been my breaking point. Throughout my entire life I've played a type of hide and seek game with God. I'd run and hide, live my life whatever way I wanted to...but he'd find me and then it would be my turn to seek him. Then once I've found him I run and hide again. I'm tired of playing the game. I don't want to hide anymore and I know I cannot make it through this on my own strength. My sinful nature has been showing through lately...I've been struggling a lot of envy and jealousy. Two very similar and equally ugly emotions. I'm trying to change and I know it won't be easy. I've been praying about it and looking for ways to make the change, but as we all know changes don't happen overnight. It's going to be a process and it's going to take a toll on me emotionally. But I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength...